I know I should be posting this blog first thing in the morning, but can we be real, a mom’s life doesn’t always fit into conventional molds. And I am not yet able to put my posts on a timer…way too techie… the fact that I can turn of the computer and navigate the web at all is somewhat of an anomaly.
And so, in the midst of napping, or should be napping children, I’m writing this to say I woke up on empty.
I am nearing the end of a two week trip (cue violins) to NM visiting family and friends. No matter what steps I take to prevent it (which is basically none), I always end up sick right before I head back home. I suspect someone is poisoning me so I will associate going home with feeling sick. :0) It works, I always hate to leave. Anyway, all that to say I woke up feeling like poo (we are all adults here, right?).
Despite not feeling well, I awoke excited to check the balance on my gofundme account, which is raising support for the She Speaks conference in July. It cost oodles and oodles and stay at home moms don’t make what they used to….wait, they make exactly what they used to… that’s the problem! Moving on. I was sure God was going to do something amazing. In my limited scope of amazing things, that consisted of so much money pouring in that I was actually going to get to sponsor 5 girls just like me… and rescue a dog from the Sara Mclachlan commercials. But, when I looked at the account, it just said empty.
EMPTY!!! How disappointing/embarrassing/ disheartening/ (insert adjective of your choice). I muddled my way out of bed, reached for my morning devo pack (Bible, journal, devo book…the works), and heading to the patio. All the while, all I could think was I felt exactly like that account…empty. And so I did what every empty person should do, I asked the Lord to fill me. And He did.
I opened my devotional book and had to laugh out loud at the words of Habakkuk 3:17-18:
Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food,
Though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls,
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
Suddenly, I didn’t feel so empty. I still feel sick though (cue violins). Isn’t it funny how the Lord can speak peace to any situation? Had I not woken up on empty, I might not have realized my need to be filled. And, I might not have realized the way to have a joy filled and thankful heart is praise!
What about you? Are you feeling empty? Learn to praise God through your emptiness, and just see if He can’t fill your heart with joy and gladness!
My sincerest thanks to those of you who have sponsored my road to Charlotte! I am strengthened though your encouragement, prayers, and support! Read about the conference here. Sponsor my trip here. Do an, “I’m awesome” dance here. No seriously, do it, YOU ARE AWESOME!
Praying for you today. That your joy will be FULL!!